I do...and I do too...and I do....and I do....and I do....

weddings, weddings, weddings

weddings shmeddings...

so i think everyone i know is getting married. it is both a humbling and exhausting affair this wedding business...

I am actually quite excited...the event is going to be great...but the breath taker to me is the idea that I am now no longer me...I mean I am no longer just me. no to take the whole cheesy (yet however relevant) religious take on this, but it is somehow exhilirating to know that it will never just be me taking the next step.

it will not just be me moving to chicago in a year.
it will not just be me working late at the office or going to the gym.
it will not just be me walking a new puppy
it will not just be me greeting old friends in Antigua

it will be me and sarah from here on out. it is a bit scary, but mostly new and fresh in a way I can almost not explain. and knowing that I can't imagine anyone else walking beside me through any of this but her is a feeling beyond words. it is also teaching me alot about what it means to be "successful"...the wedding planning has been rough (word to the wise: the "wedding industry" is a huge scandal) and, to be honest sarah has been the great force behind most of it. she has really humbled me by her efforts and her energy to make this wedding fun and memorable for everyone involved. my contributions have been meager...and I am now realizing that I have often been loved more than I have loved--this is true of my parents, brothers, aunts & uncles, and cousins too...



anyway back to wedding mania...two of my groomsmen will be married within a month of sarah and I. two highschool freinds will be married in the same month as I--one on the same day. a dear friend and professor/colleague of mine was recently married--another professor/colleague is sharing our wedding day and anniversary this year. two of my classmates at tulane will be married within a month of sarah and I. One more will be married by the end of August.

so there it is...an entire generation taking the next big step.